Puzzle Pieces

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Imagine life as one immensely large image made of countless puzzle pieces. Imagine further, that this image is forever changing and is in a state of perpetual motion. The puzzle pieces keep morphing, moving, adjusting in rhythm with this image. Life – the image/experience would not be complete(able) without all the puzzle pieces.

Have you ever worked on a 2D jigsaw puzzle and found that after all the pieces had been joined into the image, there was one or a few missing? That never feels good. Have you ever tried to put a piece into a place where it looked like it ought to fit, but then it just would not? Have you ever paused to appreciate that we humans in this life are part of a much larger puzzle and each piece is uniquely suited to fit into the bigger picture? That is how I view life. Each piece of the puzzle is unique, individual and essential. Yes, some look like they are the same, but in essence they won’t fit into the spot you thought they should. Some others look like they should just not be there, they look ugly or unsuited perhaps. However, each one is immensely important to the whole, for without it, the image would have gaps. No two pieces are exactly the same. No two pieces are meant to be the same. That is the state of diversity and at the same time oneness – and yes, it does look chaotic at times (or most of the time).

Each piece can be appreciated for what it is and at least conceptually be accepted as fitting into the bigger picture in a most unique and beautiful way. I find that it is time to let go of the idea that we must be like everyone else – when in reality, no two puzzle pieces are exactly the same. It’s just not how puzzles work.

There is no Way…

Life is expansive, there are no conflicts in nature. It is only the illusion of separation that brings the contrast of conflict… We keep seeking for a solution to find the way, but there is no real way, because we already are what we are seeking to become!

A Joyride

By paying attention to your emotional state and seeking methods and ways to think of something that makes you feel happy and by doing so taking focus away from the energetic grids and constructs that pertain to your personal human belief system, you invite vibrational alignment with your source.

The experience of life on Earth then shifts from a sense of it happening to you while you are powerless and immersed within it, to understanding, that it is a mere reflection of who you are. In fact, it already is that – a reflection of who you are, of your thoughts and beliefs and emotions. The so-called negative emotions just signal that what you experience and see is the reflection of the beliefs you hold and the positive emotions signal that you are experiencing and seeing a reflection of your own source.

The choice what you wish to experience and see is always yours. To me it  takes the form of a joyride, a prospect filled with exhilarating joy to align and see and experience the source through my human eyes and body, reflected back at me through my earthly experiences.

 

(Original post: http://www.quantumperceptions.blogspot.com    Dec, 2012)

 

 

Life After Awakening

These days, I notice that more and more people speak of waking up to their true nature as conscious creator beings. As with everything, there are so many paths that can lead to such an awakening. They are all glorious in their own right and certainly fit an individual’s belief system perfectly, or it would not have yielded the wonderful result of awakening. I found that becoming more and more aware is a gradual process however. Sometimes, the human mind thinks to suggest that since you’ve woken up to who you really are (once or twice), everything must now be fine and dandy and “done”. In my belief system, this does not hold quite true for me. Instead, I found that everything became a point of departure, a point from which I was lead to where I am today. I understand that every moment offers a plethora of choices that I not only can make consciously, but actually am repeatedly called to make consciously. If I choose (unconsciously/automatically) by default, it is most often the mainstream, mass consciousness way of thinking that dictates these choices.

Before any strand in my own belief system is set to a new default, I am called to choose consciously, over and over again, things that I prefer, things that make me feel good and make choices that feel “on” to me. If I choose to let things slip and dwell again in the illusions of mass consciousness belief systems, I will easily get drawn into that old default. This happens until my new personal defaults are practiced enough so that they anchor in, which is a distinct feeling for me. After that happens, I can become a bit less vigilant around the new default setting. This is nothing other than “a belief is a thought you keep thinking” (until it becomes so practiced that you believe it).

Waking up to become a fully conscious, aware traveler on your path is not a one time shot. In my experience, it takes a lot of repetition and a keen desire to stay awake and not go back to hide behind the veil of forgetfulness, which alas is also a very strong belief of mass consciousness that has the power to pull you again into the state of unconscious slumber. The good part is however, if you have awakened once, the path is easier to find and the process of oscillating between awake and falling into the more practiced, unconscious, automatic way of life is the very vehicle, that will firm up your path to consciousness. At first, it’s just a few footsteps in the grassy field of the undiscovered territory. Over time, it will widen to a single file footpath, then as you travel this path over and over, it will become a comfortable, known little road for you to follow into conscious living. With practice, the sometimes overwhelming pull from mass consciousness belief will lessen and the time spent in conscious living will be greater than the time you spend revisiting the old paradigm until the new pattern of waking becomes the default for you and will be anchored into your personal belief system.

 

War or Peace…

 

… it’s a personal choice!

This world has seen many wars. Too many perhaps. Humans have not stopped warring yet. Peace is a word that currently, in this holiday season especially, shows up in many ways and in many different places. However, war still prevails. It is part of the human memory to be at war and so it is manifesting still. It is part of the history that repeats itself, until such time that we humans decide to do something about it individually.

There is not much any one individual can do, or is there? I think there is the only thing any one human being can actually do that would most definitely have an impact on creation and that is to stop ALL wars within. The moment enough people have come to a sense of inner peace, critical mass will affect mass consciousness, and peace will flood the awareness of the masses. It appears that the desire for peace is great, but it seems to me that not many people actually know how to go about creating peace purposefully.

It is quite simple really. There is an inner war going on. We judge. We mostly judge ourselves by judging others. We judge and complain about the things we do not like, without understanding that we are at war with it all. (Pushing against anything is a state of war, a fight.) What exactly are we at war with? What are we resisting? The bad stuff, surely.  But that bad stuff we experience is only the reproduction, the movie-like response of our individually perceived reality. It is a direct 1:1 reflection of the energy that we bring to the world. It is a reflection of what we got going on within, a direct reflection of who we are and what we are projecting to the world. It is a reflection of us, each individual experience reflects the energies of the experiencer. So it can be said that by loving each little experience in our lives, past and present, regardless whether we liked it or not, by embracing it and loving each little bit, simply because it is a part of who we are, we end up loving ourselves. By loving each little bit, we stop fighting against it, resisting it, judging it (harshly), critiquing ourselves for the very experiences we have, as well as judging others for playing a part in the reflection of our own energies…

When we are brave enough to embrace all this, bit by bit, ugly and beautiful alike,  we cease the inner war. Eventually, the result must be inner peace and self-love. In that state, war in an outer expression ceases to be, for it cannot be reflected as it is no longer within. When critical mass is reached in the consciousness of humanity, peace will be stronger than war and the resulting world wide experience will finally be peace.

No matter whether you are called to protest against something because that is your “job” in this life, or not. Make sure the inner war stops first. Then go about what you are drawn to do in the outer, physical life. There cannot be judgment on who does what in this life. The task is a simple one, but it requires inner reflection, courage to face the uglier bits and a big enough heart to embrace them despite their not so pleasant appearance. I believe that more and more people are ready and willing to do whatever it takes. It is my firm belief that it takes self-love to achieve peace, that is a work that nobody can do for another.

 

 

 

 

Human Relationships

Recent (world wide) events have allowed me to observe human behavior in the raw. I’ve seen the correlation between events and peoples’ reactions to them. I’ve also seen very clearly that all is in relationship with each other. Relationships – that is a very loaded word. It holds so much information, good and bad, depending on anyone person’s experiences with other people. Personally, relationships and especially the romantic variety have been somewhat of a mystery to me. After many years of experiences and observations,  I’ve seen a common denominator in all human relationships and now, I feel that I may be hitting upon an underlying truth that could turn out to be just be one of those gems, a universal truth, a truth that holds true, whether one believes in it or not.

As I understand it, it’s all about energy currents. All of life in fact is about energy currents and how they are in relationship with each other. The universal law of attraction says that that which is like is drawn unto itself. This is a universal law. It is true for the smallest particles as well as the largest celestial bodies in our universe and probably in multiverses as well, although that is beyond my scope of personal experience. In the subject of human relationships, this law brings people together that have something in common, people who vibrate in a close enough frequency for the automatic attraction to happen. Love filled people will find other love filled people for example. Whatever we focus on is what we draw into our experience. I have experienced this consciously for years, and to me at least, it is true. I have seen it around me as well, and I think it actually is true for anyone.

So we meet – say it’s the romantic kind of relationship that we observe here. One person is drawn to another. The gender and orientation are a match (in whichever diverse expression matters not and ought not to be judged). Both look at each other and at the very least like what they see. Perhaps it’s instant love. Perhaps it takes a bit longer to yield to the magic of the source perspective. Yes, source perspective is what happens when we “fall in love” with another being. We observe that person through the eyes of source and source always loves unconditionally. So we love, and usually in the beginning at least, get a positive response back. (Let’s for a moment assume, that the experience of falling in love is mutual, shall we?) – Both people decide to embark on the path of romantic love and the relationship becomes conscious (it was always there, just nobody was aware of it before they met or agreed to allow love to flow.) In the ideal scenario, this blissful period (the honeymoon phase) lasts up to 2-3 years, sometimes even longer and I’ll get to that, but often just a few months before things become more difficult. Issues tend to show up. Things that didn’t bother either of the couple suddenly begin to matter and are being observed and most importantly verbally complained about. Soon enough, there are problems, quarrels, fights even and only one thing is clear, the honeymoon phase is over and, how it is often termed, “the real work begins”.

I have of course simplified things a bit here, but the standard development of a romantic relationship unfolds like that or similar. It depends on the awareness levels of the couple how they deal with their issues and what can be solved and agreed upon etc. So what happened to the honeymoon phase? To those romantic moments of bliss and connectedness? Are they forever lost? Does one have to just “get real”, come down to Earth and work through the stuff? Most professionals in the counseling field would probably see it that way.  I do not. I see a pattern that is most common in such a relationship scenario. I see that there was a current that brought both together, meaning, both people ran a current that was similar. Most often it was a current of not really loving themselves but wanting and being able to love another.

In the beginning, they gazed upon each other and bucked that current, perhaps simply because they were glad to have found a suitable mate. They bucked the current of their partner’s inability to love him or herself and loved him or her despite that forbidding current. It’s what source does – they did indeed look upon the partner through the eyes of source and achieved something incredibly difficult to maintain for a while.

The reason they could not maintain this bucking of that perpetual current of lack of self-love is simple. Human beings are not meant to buck each others’ currents forever, like source does. It’s near impossible unless one is in such perpetual alignment with source that source is who is acting through the human body (or in other words a living saint). Humans are actually meant to mirror each other, to reflect and act out what the currents of those around them are.  Now imagine! This couple – they bucked each other’s current of lack of self-love successfully for months, or even years. They shored up that lack for each other and the lack was not (always) felt. They filled the other’s heart with source love, which is nice, but it is also a classic scenario of co-dependence that has developed through this. The result is that one partner cannot live without the other’s love, and vice versa, for then one would fall back on the lack of self-love and that would hurt. So there’s a number of “co-ing” behaviors that develop around this pattern, just to uphold this energy pattern of co-dependency. This can become very stressful and draining over time. That’s because it is not how things are meant to be here in this human adventure. We are meant to show each other what currents are being offered to the world. (Yes, even the ugly bits).  It is a far greater act of love to show an unadultered current to a partner than to buck a current that is offered. Only by showing the true nature of an offered current, is the other able to see and grow through it to a greater point of awareness and ultimately independent self-love. The work that has to happen in this relationship scenario is one of training oneself into loving every little aspect of oneself and to integrate self-love. However, both partners would have to do that in order to remain attracted to each other, or the vibrations would be very different and the law that brings people together will seek other matches that are more harmonious.

Let’s assume for a moment that there is a couple who as individuals have found self-love and are offering that current to the world. Then let’s also assume that their interests and desires are a match and hence they meet. Their relationship will begin with a huge glow of the amplified energy of both hearts that join in love that is already flowing individually. Love that is not born from a sense of need, but from a sense of fulfillment within each of the partners individually. This kind of love can amplify and dance together with incredible intensity. Following the natural movement of love energy, only expansion is possible with this joining of open self-love filled hearts, as they share personal and source love in their relationship. What’s better still, neither of them has to buck the other’s current even for a moment, they can both reflect the self-love back to their partner and be in harmony with their human purpose of being a mirror for each other. Such love will last for a lifetime and beyond. It is effortless and all problems and issues that may arise will be solved through that focus of self-love and open hearts. There will be loads of fun moments, shared humor and perhaps long periods of silence, during which in mutual understanding, there is nothing to say, but only love to feel.

Some people meet in the first circumstances and through the bucking of the non-self-love current are inspired to find self love. Those are the ones where it may be blissful, then wobble but lead to a more aware form of self-love within each partner, thereby untangling the co-dependent nature of their relationship and the experience of such an untanglement will always be a sense of incredible relief and appreciation for each other to have been an invaluable catalyst in the growth journey.

Be it as it may – all scenarios (and there are definitely variations I have not mentioned here) are valid. None are better than the other. All are an experience worthy of having gone through. Ultimately, it all depends what an individual desires for their relationship(s). That sets the tone for the unfolding of the experience. Whether relationships are romantic in nature, or simply human interactions, one thing is certain. When we are independently free and self-sustaining with our need for love, we will as human race evolve into a more peaceful society, in which the basis for mirroring that which we have evolved into is love and not war.

This brings me back to the current worldwide events of war, terror, fear, and more. These are but a reflection of the currents we offer to the world and each other. Sure, there is potential for love and sure, many reports speak of this love for their next “neighbor”. However, does it not suggest to love the neighbor like we love ourselves? – that part gets forgotten too often in my opinion. True change in the world happens within, for when change comes in form of a changed current that we offer to the world, the reflection thereof will naturally be different – for that is how it works.

In short, if I want to experience love, I must love myself. If I want to experience peace, I must be at peace with myself. Humanity has been at war for a very long time and it did not stop with the end of WWII by the way. We humans are at war within our hearts. The perpetual focus and need to share what bothers us is still too strong. The focus on what is good is unpracticed as of yet, but more and more, I see people tired of complaining and pointing to the obvious negative. Instead of asking, “what would be the worst that could happen?”, which comes so easily to our minds, we can train ourselves to ask instead: “what would be the best that could happen?” – and to me, the best would be a world filled with peaceful, self-loving individuals that strive to learn, and evolve in the arts, science, and technologies for the sheer joy of evolving, which would eliminate any and all competition but support each other’s dreams to the full extent by simply being natural reflectors for each other. I may not live to see this kind of humanity in this body, but one day, I trust it will become reality.

 

 

On the Subject of Prayer

The heinous events lately here as well as in other parts of the world, and I mean lately in a very loose sort of way, always seem to initiate a cry to pray for…(insert whatever it is we’re supposed to be praying for).  There are even voices that claim to know that the world should stop praying and that we better fix our own problems (with bombs perhaps?). I get that prayer in the traditional sense always seems to come from a place of feeling inferior, overwhelmed maybe, and seeking outside help. That may be so for many still. It surely appears that prayer has kind of fallen out of favor for many. It’s just not a “thing” anymore. This may have to do with many turning away from religion, as prayer is closely associated with a faith. (Funny how literally in every faith there’s prayer somewhere though).

In my belief system, and yes, that’s all it really is, just how I managed to line up my beliefs into a seeming structure of order, prayer is essential; as is meditation. Prayer would be talking, meditation listening – but who am I talking to, who am I listening to? In my belief, I talk and listen to source. Source is the non-physical, greater part from whence a “spark” came to incarnate in my body. That is the connection to the powers that I believe are greater than those of the physical world. Now when a disaster strikes, I may pray harder, with more urgency perhaps – this comes naturally for me, as I feel more and more the connectedness with all other people who are grieving and suffering. Energetically, prayer has a very direct way of affecting everything. The contrast of the disaster creates immediately the improved version, e.g. a peaceful world. Source then becomes that version and people lagging a bit (or a lot) behind, turn their attention to the contrast situation that has brought about the new creation, therefore finding themselves feeling bad, which indicates a state of misalignment. Now add prayer to the mix – yes, prayer will add fuel to the new creation and hence, source always being the giver of what has been asked, ups the ante and sends out the new creation energy pattern with increased intensity.

Usually, as a human being, I’m somewhat in resistance at all times. (Resistance to experiencing source energy unhindered) Sometimes more, sometimes less. That level of resistance exists whether source has upped the ante and sends out massive new energy waves, or not. When source answers the prayers energetically with this increase of energetic intensity, (because prayers really do get answered) I have the same level of resistance with more energy bouncing against that and I feel the effects by feeling pretty lousy. The mind wants to make sense of it and blames the heinous contrast events that gave rise to it all in the first place, which creates further misalignment. It takes us people a while to line up with such immediate large scale new creations, but it would be good to focus on what we want instead and pray that we can align swiftly, rather than ask for more source energy based on the idea that some other-worldly God-figure may swoop down and fix it all for us … well, in a way it’s happening that way, just we (humanity) are the extensions of source here on Earth. We are actually praying to ourselves if that makes any sense at all.

So, yes, always pray, meditate, it’s the communication between you and source. It’s vital for an aligned lifestyle. Do not listen to those who say to stop praying, for prayer is that intimate re-connection with who we really are and to stop that would be counter-intuitive in my opinion. I feel that the contrasting events that give rise to the call for prayer is actually one of the positive aspects, if I may say it that way (no offense intended anywhere). People waking up to prayer is important, for by turning away from religion, they have also turned away from prayer and a (re)turn to prayer is a good thing and should never stop.

Prayer done right, connects with source and will open one’s heart. There may be tears of release flowing, as we reconnect with source in a conscious manner, that is not a sadness, but a sense of relief that one is well under way to find that connection many of us so crave.

 

 

Paris (but Paris isn’t the only one…)

To believe that the same Allah/Elohim consciousness is the driving force behind or in favor of any kind of war, terrorism, taking of lives, misery, injustices or anything like that is simply not true on a level of higher consciousness, even though it can be and has been believed for many hundreds of years and stubbornly keeps being a fundamental belief in some groups. Yet what is also called “God” allows unconditionally any belief, for in allowing is unconditional love and it is the strongest force there is. In this unconditionality, God/Allah/Elohim/Creator/One keeps calling, keeps loving and never judges, not ever. The drama unfolds exactly in accordance to what mass consciousness is capable of believing – so take your time to go within and see what you believe, for you are part of this mass consciousness. Do you believe in hate or its opposite love? Would there be so many on this planet shouting the message of love if there wasn’t any truth to it? It is a choice whether to see artists as mere entertainers or as a balancing force that has the power to influence mass consciousness directly. There are words that have been spoken many times over in many ways on this planet. I for one choose to hear and heed them….Love is ALL you need…

Why it’s really really important to pay attention to strangers (and especially the elderly)

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1-2 times a week, every week, I take the train to Oerlikon to tutor a 7th class (grade in the U.S.) student in English. I usually go a bit early, to allow myself plenty of leeway to get there on time.

Today, as I was stepping off the train, an elderly woman tapped me on the arm. She very shyly proceeded to inform me that she had accidentally gone one stop too far and was unsure about what she should do. I asked if she could get off with me where we were stopped, at Oerlikon Bahnhof, and let her know that I could help her from there.

As I travel this route often, I knew that the return train would not arrive for another half hour, and since she was to be picked up in Opfikon, where she had meant to get off, the half hour delay wasn’t exactly ideal…

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The Divine Feminine and Masculine – What it Really Means

Ancient pasts that we may not be able to access through today’s history books have been read and interpreted by those able to tune into the Akasha Records. These records reveal that on Earth, humanity has lived through a number of cycles. I do not know for sure when the split into feminine vs masculine began, I reckon it was before paradise and the story of Eden if we follow the timeline of human history to go beyond that point in time. The energetic flow from patriarchial societal structures to matriarchial explorations and back to patriarchy and so forth has been a pendulum motion back and forth into the depths of either masculine or feminine dominance alternatively.

I am called to look upon this subject today in a slightly different manner. True, there are feminist voices out there who claim that it’s better to move more into a matriarchial society and so on. This has never resonated with me, despite being female and very often feeling the sting of that expression in the male dominated society I am living in. Universal truth is, as depicted in the yin/yang symbol, that there is a drop of masculine in a female and that drop feminine in a male – we all carry the potential for both sides.

Today’s tendencies of the young ones who come to show us this are those we call “transgender” or “gender fluid”. They very clearly demonstrate (even drastically so at times) that they can feel like one gender, yet be embodied in the other and feel very much out of place in the physical body and the physical world for that very reason. I recall personally, having wanted to be a boy for many years while growing up. Hell, I was one of the tallest people in my class as a teenager with 5’10” and dwarfed quite a few boys along the way. I didn’t only dwarf them with my physical stature, but noticeably with my sense of independency, clear aversion to anything that would tell me to submit to any authority, male or female, but especially male. This was matched with an intellect that helped me navigate the world successfully, despite the challenges I chose to be born into.

The result of such a “glorious” female incarnation could have easily lead to a feminist attitude and conviction, but it did not. I ended up suffering from being feared by both men and women and this trend seems to be ongoing. This alone is a sign that I myself have not managed yet to make peace with the tug-of-war that exists within me having chosen to send forth a predominantly male energy (power) to express it in a female body. In ancient times, I would probably have embodied this in the role of “warrior princess”, “amazone”, “shaman” or some such. Today, I have chosen to become a mother. A role that has challenged every little bit of me from the first breath of my firstborn. To complete the picture, I have two daughters and although my deep desire would have been to raise a male child due to a clearer understanding of what it means to be male, I know also full well, that these two children of mine have been the most challenging but deepest blessings at the same time, assisting me on my journey to not fall into the mistaken draw of feminism (male expression of the feminine side), but to begin a far more difficult journey. It is the journey to find balance between the predominantly male energies in this physical female form and mellow that power out with the more feminine attributes of nurturing, love, care, sympathy, and empathy.

This journey is of course ongoing and I have not a clue whether I will reach a point of balance in this lifetime. However, I do know that feminism in its true sense is nothing other than masculine energy attributed to females, by disavowing the feminine parts and becoming more masculine in the process and with that power bash masculinity in turn. (To each their own, this blog post is not about feminism in the first place.) It is my sincere desire that everyone find their journey’s meandering pathways in their own manner. To me, it has become very clear, that society’s development in principle is not about flip-flopping from patriarchy to matriarchy and back again to patriarchy and so on. Times for these extremes in duality have passed. It is time to find the commonality, the congruence and the beauty in the merger of these two energetic forces that seem to oppose each other yet complement each other beautifully and powerfully, when given the chance.

In order to see humanity develop into such a sense of equality of female and male energies and expressions requires individual journeys in which many individuals explore this subject within and find that (near) perfect balance in their own lives. It is no longer about “either/or” but rather about inclusion, integration, and about allowing that these energies complement each other in the most harmonious way possible within each individual, giving rise to the understanding of the inherent value of both sides and the even greater value of the combination of male and female energies. Those who resonate with these words have their work cut out for them and my heartfelt sympathy goes to all those with extreme courage to step onto this unchartered territory to carve out a new, peaceful path for equality within humanity. Thank you!