Victim of Circumstance (part 1)

The focus and overt attention we give to something, be it positive or negative in our experiene, creates an energetic pattern that will bring more of the same into our experience. Cool! – now I have this “thing” in my experience I don’t want. I’ve experienced it over and over and obviously, I’ve complained about it and gotten used to focusing on it, so it shows up and greets me every day anew like that old pal I would love to ditch. Oh, I’ve tried to ditch it – believe me! I’ve tried to run from it, I’ve tried to fight it, I’ve struggled against it and resisted it with all my might, yet here it is again, day after day. The habit of focusing on it has created this seemingly endless pattern. A loop, where I revisit this “thing” and therefore experience it. It seems there’s no escape from it at all. So what’s the hype with positivity ? That stuff surely can’t make that monster I apparently have created (have I?) go away! I can’t just paint a smiley face on this and pretend it’s not there, since it keeps showing up. Perhaps I have been fated to experience this ugly monster day after day, it’s must be just my burden to carry – so my thought patterns. There it is – the ultimate thought that slipped in through the back door: “I’m a victim of circumstance!” – Of course I don’t know this ultimate thought in word form, but I feel its power. I feel it, yes it is true, look around – it’s everywhere, circumstances abound and they victimize me and keep me hostage! – The cycle has found it’s low point, or has it not?

If this scenario sounds remotely familiar, I have perhaps some news for you. First off, you are correct. You are experiencing yourself as a victim of the circumstances in your life. You have proof of that. It feels real. I get it. I can easily acknowledge this and nod. Yes indeed, it is so. However, the query does not end here! “Why is this experience the way it is and repeats itself over and over in variations?” That is a question that will have undoubtedly an answer akin to: “because I believe to be a victim of circumstance”. And there you have it…

Now on to the perhaps rather unconventional part of this scenario. You’ve tried to move on from this state, I’m sure you have. You’ve tried to escape, you’ve tried to meditate perhaps, you’ve tried that darn positive affirmation thing and it failed – You want to simply give up, flop over and let it all be, yet there’s that spark in you that fights again and again. Two things happen here. The fight against this brings more focus to it and therefore elicits more confirmatory experiences and it firms up the very belief you are trying to expunge. The other thing is this – the sense of having exhausted all your fight and all possible actions and the feeling of giving up is actually your source input trying to guide you toward the one thing that will bring you the relief you are seeking. Flop over – let it all be! – that’s the call of source!

Have you tried following that call yet? – If you have, you know where I’m going with this. If not, then I feel it may be time you did. Allowing is a magical thing. Allowing can heal so much. Allow that you have this core belief. (You are not alone, it’s a core belief you share with mass consciousness). Allow that things are as they are. Allow it like a farmer who just lost his crop to bad weather would sigh and accept. Shrug and say “oh well” – just for a moment. Let the relief that follows this acceptance flood through your very being. Let go of the fight, even if it seems counter-intuitive. Let go of the struggle that only creates more focus on the undesirable thing.

Don’t try to run from that, don’t try to immediately shift away, try to fully embrace that thing that caused you to feel victimized. Get me right, it’s not about forgiveness here. It’s about acceptance and nothing more. This is the first step. Give this step enough time to feel what it means to be in a state of acceptance of what is.

 

(Since there is need for time between the first and the following steps, part 2 of “Victim of Circumstance” will follow a bit later – stay tuned!)

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Trump

This is the day after the election – Trump, Mr. Trump that is, is president-elect. The country reels. The country groans. Those who voted for him may gloat or simply feel satisfied for having gotten their choice of candiate. Most certainly, change is in the air.

For a long time now, I have not really understood what this over the top caricature of a man (for whom I did not cast my vote) has shown me. Today, I realize…

Today, I see just how strong a mirror he is for each and every human being who is looking in his direction, be they American citizens or not.  From my perspective, he shows us the shadows. He shows us the things we abhor. He shows us the things we try to hide within ourselves. No matter how “good” we are in our behaviors, if there are things this man says and does that irritate us, we have not integrated that we are potentially also able to be that way (bear with me please). We have not acknowledged that we too can hate and be all these things we so abhor. Only if we can look at Mr. Trump with equanimity and true compassion have we been able to fully integrate these “negative” aspects. Before we have integrated them, we cannot fully embark on a path of goodness and love. The shadow side must be acknowledged and should not simply be tucked away somewhere in a hidden part of our psyche.

We may fear that by acknowledging, that we too have the human capacity for hatred and all the other ugly things that irritate us so when we see Mr. Trump express them boldly and blatantly, we may risk being like him for good and not find our way toward the lighter side of things on our path toward becoming aware, conscious, love based individuals. The truth is however, that only by integrating, acknowledging, and owning that we too have the very same capacity for the ugly side, are we then free to truly choose. Then, the not yet integrated issues within us are not choosing for us, but instead, we are free to choose whether to be hate based or love based.

Seemingly choosing love, all the while hate is being thoroughly hated, isn’t choosing love at all. True love just loves. It simply is. It flows without finding irritation anywhere. A high and lofty goal, I give you that, but I believe it’s worth accepting my capacity for ugly in order to get there. For that clarity, I thank Mr. Trump for his role in humanity’s game of evolution.

 

 

Resisting Resistance

Our fantastic human brains respond very easily to the mass consciousness belief of “fighting against that which is bad”. Humanity has with loads of practice reached a place long ago, where that fighter spirit is the default and it responds to everything from the most insignificant subject to those subjects that impact nations and the earth itself. On my journey, I’ve spiraled into the experiential understanding that resistance is equal to focus (in intensity and duration). It is not only futile to resist, it’s actually counterproductive. While in the resistant state, we will never experience that which we want to experience in the amazing details we have conjured up due to the contrast we have experienced. In a state of resistance, that which has given rise to identify the preference is still being focused upon and the new cannot be experienced, as we are no vibrational match to it yet. Every process, every work plan we may have to edge away from resisting, for who wants to focus on the unwanted voluntarily, means only one thing – we have declared resistance to be the unwanted thing and are resisting it with that same fighter spirit that is humanity’s default still. It’s a double whammy at that point and it will always feel bad to be in such a state of double resistance. 

Allowing resistance to be a part of our lives’ experiences takes practice. It takes letting go. It takes allowing the “negative” emotions to be there, it takes releasing any and all pushing against feeling bad. It takes embracing the emotion as a natural reminder that there is greater well being in store and more ease still to be had. The reminder, that for now, in that negative emotion, you’re just as healthy as you are in full bliss and vibrational alignment with your source point. It is natural to resist while physically focused. It is normal to feel bad because of the resistance and it is ultimately easy to allow the natural unfolding of that process without resisting resistance so much. The following words have helped me reach levels of allowing that are greater than those I allowed before:

“There is no place to get to, there is nothing to do. I am here, now, in the state I am in anyway and since that is where I am at, I trust it to be perfect for me. I allow it to be just as it is. I pay attention to the experience and deem it right and good. I put my boat into the stream of my own creation and float towards that which source has in store for me with ease and quiet curiosity.” 

It is a calm state this state of allowing resistance to be what it is. In this calm, resistance dissolves all on its own. As my focus on it lessens, I experience more of my natural state of being, since source always allows everything unconditionally. Alignment is the inevitable consequence.

 

 

Working Hard

To this day, humanity holds on to the belief held by mass consciousness that promotes good work ethics. The belief holds steadfast, that only through hard work, there will be success. This belief permeates everything, even spiritual development. How often have you heard someone say: “I’m working hard on my alignment” – “if I work a bit harder at meditating, I’ll get there”…the list is endless.

The belief that there is hard work involved before we get to see results is the very thing that is experienced. In that belief structure, it is clear that only through hard work, the experience of the desired result is available. Unless you work hard, you won’t be as successful as those who do work hard, so the belief continues, and tosses out the bait of competition for those who wish to take it.

What I see when I hear the words “hard work” (yes, even when they creep into my own vocabulary from time to time) is this: We ARE the universal forces that we believe are outside of us to deliver us the realities that we experience. We all are part of that universal energy that shapes itself into everything we choose to believe. If we believe in the myth of hard work, there we have it – without hard work, no success. If we believe however in the omnipotent nature of pure positive energy, which is exactly that which we are at our core, then the idea of working hard becomes rather ridiculous (to me anyway). Really? the universe, this omnipotent force that has also been entitled “God” has to work hard ? – I don’t believe this for once second. What I do believe and with that pitch my human nature against the current of mass consciousness,is this: we are here to play, to frolic, to enjoy and to create. It’s play people! It’s nowhere near hard work, unless we decide to explore that old belief structure some more (and to do that is absolutely allowed).

Personally, I pick play over work any old day – passionate play that is. Aligned play and inspired action. With that attitude and belief, I accomplish so much more, than when I dip a toe back into the currents of old that sometimes pipe up and say: what ? you haven’t worked yet today? – When that happens, I laugh and recognize the “should” in my inner dialogue and wait until that moment passes until I find alignment, joy, and my playful nature again which is always just waiting to explore, do, accomplish, create, and enjoy – every day anew.

Doing What I Love

Isn’t it so, that at least once or twice a day, we have to do something we don’t love doing? There are things that just need to get done. We have been conditioned that that’s what life is all about, gritting your teeth and doing that which has to be done.

That premise has held true for me for way too long. For a very long time, I didn’t even know what I would love doing. I’m not only speaking of vacation or free time events and activities, but also professionally. I add the word “profession” to the mix and feel the bitter juices flow. There is no profession that allows me to do that which I love doing – all day long. That has to do with my nature. I don’t like repetition and I don’t like doing the same thing for a prolonged amount of time. I like diversity, ever changing things. I like this and that and that and that other thing too. I want it all. It took many years of searching to find that which I love doing most and turn it into a “profession”. Turned out that the moment it became a profession that was marketable, it took something out of the mix and it almost turned sour for me. I’ve pondered on what it would take to make a living with that “profession” of mine and to this day, I can’t say I’ve been successful. There have to be other sources of income for me, in order to keep doing that which I love.

I’ve taken it a step further. Now, I’m disengaging from the word “profession” and what it means to me altogether and I’m just simply doing what I love. As often as I can manage. I have stopped worrying whether it would eventually pay my bills. I have stopped worrying whether I would ever gain professional status or anything of the sort. It has become quite simple and with a renewed gusto, I simply do what I love and if there is money flowing my way or any other ways of balancing out the giving and taking aspects of the exchange, I gracefully accept. Only now does it feel like I’m in the flow of abundance. Any and all thoughts on “how to make money” have been replaced with “I will always be provided with what I need”. The worry factor has never been this low!

I understand that doing what I love seems like a privilege. It is perhaps a hard earned privilege. Most certainly, I feel, it’s natural. Why would I incarnate to go do something I don’t love ? That makes absolutely no sense to me. I understand that financially, certain bases have to be covered. So if a “mainstream” job that isn’t so lovely needs to be held, I’m all for common sense (for a time). However, I also feel that it is very important to nourish the soul by at least spending some time each day doing what I love. It is something that we can all do at least 10 minutes of doing something we love. Until that becomes a habit. I feel that we need to re-establish the flow of that as best as we can in order to make it a reality. I feel we owe it to ourselves to spend at least some time doing that which we love doing hopefully without judgment of ourselves or worse yet, guilt. Just because! Doing what we love is not just a privilege, it is our birth right and I think it’s high time we claim it.

(Original Post: August 3, 2011)

 

The Power of Beliefs

There is a belief that holds steadfast and is anchored within mass consciousness. That means, it is one of the most commonly held beliefs that affect us all. It seems to me that it is difficult to believe something else, while this one is offering still such a very strong current for all of humanity. The belief I am talking about is the one that creates the reality of having to work through things, overcome adversity and apply effort to do so.

Only when we have given it everything we have, only when we have thrown all our efforting that is humanly possible against the various things we categorize as adversity, do we stand a chance of redemption or a glimpse of ease. This belief is only strong because so many of us here on Earth still believe in the action journey. The action journey is the one where we see something unwanted and thus begin to work hard in our outer environment to improve the situation. (Mind you, the same action journey applies to doing your “inner work” while gaining more spiritual awareness.) The action journey is where it’s at for most people, for without pain no gain (or so the belief confirms) – without hard labor, no fruit. We all want the rewards. We all want to feel good. I know no one who desires to feel bad. I know a great many from all walks of life, of many possible belief systems, who work hard, and I mean HARD, to “get there” (there being whatever goal they have set for themselves).

Even while writing this up, I’m feeling the drudgery, the exhaustion, the pain, the sheer insurmountable heaps of “issues” that supposedly need to be overcome here on Earth. A task that even the hardiest workers among us cannot possibly undertake by the action journey alone.

What other possibilities are there instead? – I am called to write about this belief in “hard work”. I am called to say that it is this very belief that makes the experience so difficult. It is this belief of “hard work for results” that delivers the reality of all the adversity we experience, to give us ample opportunity to work hard (to confirm the belief through experiencing this reality).  It is simple: for as long as you believe in this concept, you will experience this concept. I have believed in it, I have experienced it. I have also found it very difficult to go against the massive current of humanity’s belief in it to learn to believe otherwise, until I realized that my difficulties had the very same belief pattern (it takes hard work to overcome adversity) at its foundation. It does not matter what change you are aiming for in your life. It can be change on the physical, emotional, mental, or even spiritual plane of experience. Even those who have decided to aim for fantastically high vibrations often still adhere to this old fashioned belief and “work hard” at attaining their goals.

This moment is as good as any to ditch that old belief! Beware, that it isn’t hard work! – It really is not! –  A belief is a thought you keep thinking. Think a thought of ease long enough and you will find happy feelings to start with, and eventually the flow of ease in and throughout all of your experiences will begin to show up. I feel compelled to say that it is time to stop overcoming, to stop working hard at our goals, to be bold and believe in ease, even if the rest of the world does not yet. Let’s be pioneers who begin unraveling the massive fabric of this belief that has become part of mass consciousness over the past few thousand years. It does not take hard work to do so – it’s easy if we laugh about it. We can find it fantastic as it really is fantastic to have brought about such stringent limitations. Make it a point to take every moment you can to consciously relax into the ease that is your natural state of being. If you still feel the need to work, then work on awareness, work on taking things with ease and acceptance, work on playing, play with it until it is work no more.

Work Becomes Play

 

When love is part of everything you do, work becomes play and the moment expands to include time for each and every little thing that needs to be done.

Physical Existence

The idea that we are here in the physical plane because of something other than our own intense desire to be here strikes me as funny these days, although it did feel like labor camp for a long stretch of my journey 🙂