The Stars Within

lyra

 

At the tremendous “risk” of going really “out there” with this blog post, bear with me, it’ll all land again on human territory.

Perhaps you have heard about, or followed some of the relevant information and/or the ramblings and guesses of those who call themselves “starseeds”. All in all, the fascination with stars may have been the only clue that you are drawn to lift your gaze from the everyday human stuff toward the heavens and wonder about other worlds. Perhaps you’ve been equally fascinated by all things sci-fi or astrology, astronomy etc, or all of the above combined. Then there’s the yet unproven but very eagerly talked about theme of “aliens”. Other people who live on other planets. To me it has been really quite a common sense assumption, while gazing upon the vastness of space, that there ought to be other beings out there, science is now catching up to saying that the probability is high or some such.

Anyway, long ago, I visioned and had received a message that had puzzled me deeply. “You are not of the Earth” it said. That was very strange, because I look very human indeed and my body is definitely a human one. That odd message was difficult to integrate, let alone believe for a very long time, especially as it was combined with many voices that urged me to finally ground. I do have a deep love for Mother Earth but also a very difficult time to fully comprehend my lack of understanding of my fellow human beings. All in all, it was a very confusing mix to say the least. I’ve learned to cope, I’ve learned to live with it, howver, I’ve never quite shaken the belief and subsequent experience of being “different”, an assessment that had come a long way from the much more potent, self-critical “attributes” of old.

These days, I see Native American tribes gather and meet peacefully after long standing rivalries. They are making peace. They come together for the common cause of saving Mother Earth and protecting her water. A noble cause indeed! In my immediate experience, I see family ties break and fizzle away, I see soul families gather, and that leads to the question I had been born with, which still resounds very deeply within me: “where do I come from?”

Sure, by now I understand that my source is energy, consciousness to be exact and has no specific location. My spark, or soul if you wish, has affinities however, and one very strong affinity is to a different star system. I’ve yearned to go “home” all my life and it has nothing to do with croaking or going back to source. It has to do with being familiar with being incarnated in a much lighter even taller body and experience the point of view of my soul family, who does not reside on Earth. I feel the connection with them today as much as I did (unknowingly then) in my youth. It has always been there. The starseed lies within, even if I spent many years trying to seek it outside of me. The starbeings we feel close to are “out there”. Our wish for them to come down to Earth may even be known, but they cannot come into an acknowledged common reality, as long as we believe that they are far, far out there on some planet that is millions of lightyears away. Instead, it took only a slight shift in consciousness, to realize that they are also in here, right in my own energetic make-up. This shift was nothing I had intended for, it happened spontaneously. I realized that my star family’s perception and abilities are encoded in my DNA, their love is in my heart, their mind and their point of perspective can merge with mine in my own field of consciousness.

Upon acknowledging the simple epiphany, that the star family isn’t “out there” but “in here”, the DNA blueprint that I call starseed began to shift. I can only describe it as an “activation” or  an “opening” – the seed had begun germinating – My perception and energetic sense has shifted ever since then. It seems to be shifting into the mindset/belief pattern and point of perception that stems from that particular star family. Where it all goes, I do not know. This is a new development that I can only allow, for stopping it is impossible. One admonishment that I received was this: the human based perception of separation, and with that the experience of aloneness, is a treat. It’s an illusion that is not part of the perception of my star family’s consciousness. I had better explicitly embrace and appreciate the very thing which irked me so for so long, for soon I feel that perception will shift. By shifting this perception and sharing this information with others who also know they are starseeds, the awakening to the call of the joining of the tribes can continue and spread. The raising of humanity’s consciousness is a very subtle and personal inside job. There is nothing one has to do other than allow the shift to the innate blueprint of that which we came to be – humans, united with their star tribes.  – We truly are the ones we have been waiting for!

 

 

 

 

The Blessing of Accepting Responsibility

As I was spiraling through my patterning, I had the opportunity to get a good look at a wonderful pattern. The pattern that keeps me in the “right” to complain, blame others for my experience, and feel victimized by circumstances and people. There I thought I had worked through that, but it appeared that there was another level of intensity that I could become clear about. Sure, I know I’m the creator of my own reality – I take full responsibility, except when I complain, or judge, or fall into these states where I feel sorry for my (perceived) bad luck and so on. Only then, I’m rather not the creator of my own reality… In those moments, I disavow my creator status. By doing that, I basically am very mean to myself. With my resistance to accepting that it is my creation, I say in energetic “words” – “I did not do that – therefore, I’m not a creator”. Strangely enough, when I last revisited this subject, it felt like I was facing a really tough decision – one that asks me to give up complaining and blaming others (more and more) and one that asks me to step into the identity as being a responsible creator. It was the moment in which I realized, that once I fully embrace this, I will no longer pretend I am something that I am not. Authenticity had just gotten more real than ever before. My perception has since shifted from seeing my experience as something I am looking at, to something I actually caused to appear. The impact of taking full responsibility for this is sobering to say the least. I am happy to be in this place, for the path that lead me here was my unique creation as well, and I am fully responsible for every bit in my reality.

A Joyride

By paying attention to your emotional state and seeking methods and ways to think of something that makes you feel happy and by doing so taking focus away from the energetic grids and constructs that pertain to your personal human belief system, you invite vibrational alignment with your source.

The experience of life on Earth then shifts from a sense of it happening to you while you are powerless and immersed within it, to understanding, that it is a mere reflection of who you are. In fact, it already is that – a reflection of who you are, of your thoughts and beliefs and emotions. The so-called negative emotions just signal that what you experience and see is the reflection of the beliefs you hold and the positive emotions signal that you are experiencing and seeing a reflection of your own source.

The choice what you wish to experience and see is always yours. To me it  takes the form of a joyride, a prospect filled with exhilarating joy to align and see and experience the source through my human eyes and body, reflected back at me through my earthly experiences.

 

(Original post: http://www.quantumperceptions.blogspot.com    Dec, 2012)

 

 

The Veil

There are many reports from fabulous points of perspectives, that speak of many a change on Earth. Especially changes in the universal energies, astrological placements, and so on. They are all fantastic markers on our individual journeys and usually find us just at the right time, when we’re ready to read the amazingly accurate wayshowers’ treatises. This is why occasionally, I feel drawn to participate and put my perception out there. The reason for doing so is always based on a nudge I receive from my source point. This nudge indicates that it is the right point in time to write it all up, even if there’s just one other person ready to read it. That means, someone must have asked for clarity about this subject I am about to share here today, and this asking has caused the information to flow into this more public space, ready to be found.

The veil of forgetfulness was (yes was!) a thing that was “mandatory” and in place for most incarnations before 2012. It activated at the moment of birth into physical and the veil usually closed all the way by about age 7. Some kids were able to keep it open through a few more years, but usually around puberty, it shut completely and erased all memory of non-physical. Occasionally, there was a child born without the veil, or only a slight veil. Those incarnations weren’t special or meant to be lifted out of the ordinary, although they were certainly not the norm.

This  veil had a purpose and it still does. It is part of the Law of Grace, which shields the human mind from overload and being overwhelmed with input. (The Law of Grace speaks of never getting more than one can handle.) However, the human mind, along with the human DNA is expanding, as is everything else in this universe and in the physical as well as non-physical experience. The human mind can comprehend and compute so much more today than it was able to just 50 years ago, for example, and certainly a huge amount more than 200 – 1000 years ago, and so on.

This natural evolutionary expansion has become the catalyst that has slowly begun thinning the veil. It is with utter joy and exaltation that humanity has reached a point where the veil is becoming optional. This means that those who are experiencing the desire to know their source point will experience the thinning of this veil. It also follows that the decision as to whether to incarnate with the veil in place, thinner, or not at all present, is now available as a choice prior to incarnating into a new body.

In the spirit of free will choice, individuals can stay in their vibrational frequency they are used to with the veil fully in place, the law of grace shielding them from too much information at all times, so that they can go about their lives as they have intended and are used to. However, if the desire is reached to know non-physical self (source) better, the veil will begin to thin out gradually. This means, information has a chance to penetrate your mind that previously may not have found an avenue or your comprehension. This can range from perceiving every day experiences more fully, colors more vividly, sounds more precisely to gleaning information about past lives, source intentions, “missions” and goals that are relevant to you at this point in time. It can also lead to gradual opening of extra-sensory perception channels that have until now been more or less dormant.  These are but a few of the potential results you may experience while your veil thins more and more. All in all, a thinning veil will certainly expand your range of perception and intensify your human experience while bringing exquisite clarity to you.

More and more of the newly incarnated young ones may prove to you that they know far more than you can imagine. They may eventually begin using words that express that expanded knowledge and it would then be easy to see that they have chosen to come with a thin veil or none at all. This is how humanity will evolve from being closed off from the awareness of non-physical to gain fully integrated awareness over time from one generation to the next.

The excitement that I feel while bringing this information into the language form is incredibly beautiful. Personally, having lived all along without the veil in place, I rejoice in seeing more and more of my fellow humans reach for non-physical in ways that are so beautiful. I happily offer to engage in conversation about this process.

Explorations into Worthiness

For the past 4 weeks, I’ve taken an intense journey through the web of patterning that I call my personal beliefs. I have explored so many of these beliefs before on my journey, yet came across some deep seated structures that I had no idea existed in my web. The decision to embark on this journey came from a desire to explore the theme of worthiness. Unconditional worthiness that is. I had traveled from the depths of feeling utterly unworthy in my youth to find success in personal achievements that brought me into a sense of self-love, self-acceptance and even worthiness before my own eyes. I fooled myself successfully into believing that this was in full alignment with my source. Little did I know that I had a lot further to go on this topic. All my sense of worthiness (so I came to understand along with eating personal humble pie along the way) had been based on conditions. The amount of conditions I had in place had me stunned over and over again, until I was able to begin to apply humor to this journey that lead me into the depths of cleverly masked unworthiness.

The first couple of weeks were difficult to navigate. It seemed to me that the more I gazed upon situations, patterns, memories etc, where the theme of worthiness played a part, the more would pop up. I gradually gained the awareness that literally every ounce of sense of self-worth I encountered had to do with some sort of achievement, behavior, or other condition that went beforehand. It literally felt like I was trapped in a maze where I would bang my head at some walls at every thought/turn. Alignment was not to be had. Instead, I experienced a sense of sadness and what felt like a sea of grief that threatened to engulf me. My best guess is that these feelings were the emotional response of the past 5 decades that I had successfully circumnavigated or silenced by applying myself to seek successes in order to feel worthy of living my life. With ingenious cleverness, I had directed such achievements away from the standard achievements of career and such, to give the impression that I wasn’t buying into mainstream patterning, but in this past month I came to realize that it matters very little in which area of interest one strives for success and achievements in order to accomplish the feat of feeling worthy. It’s all the same. Any area of interest that I felt a good sense of self-worth in turned out to be just littered with the covered up patterns of unworthiness. It ran very deep into existential depths.

I realized in my process that this sense of unworthiness is at the core of the human conditioning and activates immediately as we are born into our physical form. It’s a core pattern of humanity and to change this core belief took some conscious pattern pivoting on my behalf and I believe it will be an ongoing project for quite some time still, as mass consciousness is buying heavily into having to prove oneself first before a sense of worthiness can be … what? – achieved?! … In this very sentence, you can see the crux of this topic. I encountered the difficulty of “achieving the change of this belief structure in order to become worthy” over and over again and decided to relax every time I found myself to be “working” on changing the belief from unworthy to worthy. This drive to reach for something, to achieve something runs very deep in human thought, and since I am human like everyone else, it is no different for me.

The journey through the maze of patterns attached to the theme of worthiness brought me to this understanding: I am worthy regardless of any condition. The unconditionality of worthiness is the central factor that I was able to identify. The moment a condition arises in my thoughts, I know I’m buying into the unworthiness pattern, be it ever so briefly. When I pay attention and recognize that moment, I take the opportunity and affirm that I was worthy before the condition and stay worthy – period. It gets very simple after the first rush of the many beliefs that are part of the (un)worthiness web. A belief is a thought I keep thinking. Without pushing against conditional worthiness (=unworthiness covered up to make it acceptable), I have resorted to repeat words like “I am worthy regardless” or simply “I am still worthy” – “I will always be worthy” … At first these words sounded a bit phoney – almost like small little lies. Over time, once the intense 2 week period of grief and sadness had given way to better feelings again, these little reassurances had grown to be more powerful and today, I feel they have grown beautiful roots in my belief system. They have anchored in on many themes of my life and my life experiences have changed along with this fundamental change in my belief system.

I do feel mass consciousness’ pull at times still, where it feels like I am swimming against a mighty current, but I realize that those are the moments I am actually trying to fight against that current. Only by allowing that current to be unchanged, even though my personal current has changed fundamentally, do I feel alignment. I am worthy whether mass consciousness holds the belief of having to prove itself or not. I am being careful to not pronounce any success, achievement, or mastery at this point. I realize that the theme of worthiness is an all-encompassing core theme that touches every human being and I simply appreciate that I am free to share my perceptions in these explorations into worthiness, knowing full well that everything is always perfect and nothing is ever done.

 

Whomever you Meet

At any new encounter, meet your family, your friends, your acquaintances without a preconceived idea. Meet them without prejudice. Meet them with an open mind and an open heart as you would meet someone you have never met before and you may be surprised to observe how different they can (and often want to) be if you offer no current as to who they were before.

Life Experiences

Not many are able to buck a current, nobody is really supposed to buck a current. All people you interact with are cooperative components in your reality behaving the way your current dictates – the type of current you are offering can be witnessed in your life experiences… if you don’t like it, just change the current by choosing that which you actually prefer … make that choice over and over again until it becomes a new belief, a new current; until it can be seen played out in different life experiences.

The Purity of Joy

A human’s stubborn refusal to see beyond the physical is often an expression of his or her greatest ability to focus. In the spirit of allowing all that can come forth to be as it is; to observe everything unfolding with the precision of the universal forces we are; to see in that the expression of diversity of the many individual focusing creator beings, therein lies the purity of joy.

My Will vs. Thy Will

The dichotomy of physical vs. non-physical still holds a firm grip on many a human’s perception. The desire may arise to flow more of source energy through the physical manifestation, but there is that wonderful ego that signals concern about losing the freedom to choose and the freedom to one’s own will. (Let’s call that “My Will”).  This is in stark opposition to “Thy Will”, the will of source, the god-force, or non-physical. In the polarity based perception one cannot exist when the other is active. In the higher frequencies, this perception shifts however to the understanding that both these seemingly separated types of will or desire points can and do peacefully co-exist if we let them. We cannot hope to flow a greater amount of source energy through our physical body for as long as a belief is present that there is something to give up (like “My Will”.) Truth is, we don’t have to give up a thing. But we can open ourselves up to gaining a whole lot more, not just in vibration or energy, but also expanded perception of that which we experience on a daily basis. The expansion of consciousness will lead at some point to this crossroads where seemingly a decision for physicality or then for non-physicality ought to be made.

When this point of development shows  up, many are experiencing a difficulty to decide. There is but one reason for this indecision. You are not meant to decide in an either/or kind of way. The decision is not to choose “Thy will” over “My will” – the decision is to align “My will” to “Thy will” and to know that all desires, be they born from the non-physical point of view or also from the physical point of view can and will be fulfilled, and can also be experienced in the physical form, if we line up with the energy of it. A decision between non-physical or physical would in essence mean to decide for one part of who you are and against another. That must feel off, as it is utter misalignment and cannot even be done. Sure, you can deny a part of yourself for the experience of that denial, but in the end, you will come to learn that separation is the great illusion and that the experience of it through this denial was a fun ride at best, but can never be universal truth.

If you desire to reach higher vibrational frequencies, I am pretty sure that this dichotomy will have to find some resolving before you can march on, on your own path to ascension and alignment with your source point. The joy that comes from dissolving the barriers of separation between you and you will let you know that you have found a greater degree of alignment still. Only one thing remains with unshakeable certainty: Source loves you beyond measure, regardless of where you step next – unconditionally!

 

Changes

Perhaps you have felt it too…. a big energetic surge has hit the planet, culminating at the time of the Cardinal Grand Cross in April. The wave that ensued has swept that which was hidden and needed attention within each person to the surface. For some, riding this wave has been exhilarating and others found themselves in midst of the “muck” that they were perhaps not even aware of. The “muck” being flawed beliefs and learned behavior patterns that serve no longer in the new energies on Earth. Some say, this energetic burst was an opening, others call it a cleansing. For some it was a boost of epic proportions that propelled them into new understanding of how the universal forces are part of this creation and for others, it was a time of grieving losses, letting go and regrouping. I am certain there are numerous other ways this energetic wave was felt as it swept through the energies of our planet and is still rippling out. All I can say from my point of perspective is this: a new energetic frequency is in play now and this is interpreted and felt differently by each individual, similar perhaps, but ultimately the experience of it is very unique.

This change can also instill fear. The fear of change comes from the flawed belief that creation and with it the experienced reality is a static sort of thing that must be held onto, or it will all fall apart (or some such). From my personal journey’s point of view I can wholeheartedly guarantee that even if it feels like change and falling apart, it’s always just a metamorphosis and a new beginning. It is never an ending. It is never a loss and it is never the destruction of our innermost essence. It cannot be.

When fear of change hits, know that there may be flawed beliefs at play that suggest the loss of structure or your demise. These sort of beliefs are so far removed from that which source (your essence) is, that it takes only one look and a giggle to set the record straight. Know that you have bought into the illusion of being “finite” and reassure yourself that you are indeed infinite, pure positive energy at play. Ride the wave as it presents itself to you, it’s a personal thing, even if there are voices who say otherwise. Your journey is yours to experience and it is a glorious one.