The Blessing of Accepting Responsibility

As I was spiraling through my patterning, I had the opportunity to get a good look at a wonderful pattern. The pattern that keeps me in the “right” to complain, blame others for my experience, and feel victimized by circumstances and people. There I thought I had worked through that, but it appeared that there was another level of intensity that I could become clear about. Sure, I know I’m the creator of my own reality – I take full responsibility, except when I complain, or judge, or fall into these states where I feel sorry for my (perceived) bad luck and so on. Only then, I’m rather not the creator of my own reality… In those moments, I disavow my creator status. By doing that, I basically am very mean to myself. With my resistance to accepting that it is my creation, I say in energetic “words” – “I did not do that – therefore, I’m not a creator”. Strangely enough, when I last revisited this subject, it felt like I was facing a really tough decision – one that asks me to give up complaining and blaming others (more and more) and one that asks me to step into the identity as being a responsible creator. It was the moment in which I realized, that once I fully embrace this, I will no longer pretend I am something that I am not. Authenticity had just gotten more real than ever before. My perception has since shifted from seeing my experience as something I am looking at, to something I actually caused to appear. The impact of taking full responsibility for this is sobering to say the least. I am happy to be in this place, for the path that lead me here was my unique creation as well, and I am fully responsible for every bit in my reality.

There is no Way…

Life is expansive, there are no conflicts in nature. It is only the illusion of separation that brings the contrast of conflict… We keep seeking for a solution to find the way, but there is no real way, because we already are what we are seeking to become!

A Joyride

By paying attention to your emotional state and seeking methods and ways to think of something that makes you feel happy and by doing so taking focus away from the energetic grids and constructs that pertain to your personal human belief system, you invite vibrational alignment with your source.

The experience of life on Earth then shifts from a sense of it happening to you while you are powerless and immersed within it, to understanding, that it is a mere reflection of who you are. In fact, it already is that – a reflection of who you are, of your thoughts and beliefs and emotions. The so-called negative emotions just signal that what you experience and see is the reflection of the beliefs you hold and the positive emotions signal that you are experiencing and seeing a reflection of your own source.

The choice what you wish to experience and see is always yours. To me it  takes the form of a joyride, a prospect filled with exhilarating joy to align and see and experience the source through my human eyes and body, reflected back at me through my earthly experiences.

 

(Original post: http://www.quantumperceptions.blogspot.com    Dec, 2012)

 

 

Life After Awakening

These days, I notice that more and more people speak of waking up to their true nature as conscious creator beings. As with everything, there are so many paths that can lead to such an awakening. They are all glorious in their own right and certainly fit an individual’s belief system perfectly, or it would not have yielded the wonderful result of awakening. I found that becoming more and more aware is a gradual process however. Sometimes, the human mind thinks to suggest that since you’ve woken up to who you really are (once or twice), everything must now be fine and dandy and “done”. In my belief system, this does not hold quite true for me. Instead, I found that everything became a point of departure, a point from which I was lead to where I am today. I understand that every moment offers a plethora of choices that I not only can make consciously, but actually am repeatedly called to make consciously. If I choose (unconsciously/automatically) by default, it is most often the mainstream, mass consciousness way of thinking that dictates these choices.

Before any strand in my own belief system is set to a new default, I am called to choose consciously, over and over again, things that I prefer, things that make me feel good and make choices that feel “on” to me. If I choose to let things slip and dwell again in the illusions of mass consciousness belief systems, I will easily get drawn into that old default. This happens until my new personal defaults are practiced enough so that they anchor in, which is a distinct feeling for me. After that happens, I can become a bit less vigilant around the new default setting. This is nothing other than “a belief is a thought you keep thinking” (until it becomes so practiced that you believe it).

Waking up to become a fully conscious, aware traveler on your path is not a one time shot. In my experience, it takes a lot of repetition and a keen desire to stay awake and not go back to hide behind the veil of forgetfulness, which alas is also a very strong belief of mass consciousness that has the power to pull you again into the state of unconscious slumber. The good part is however, if you have awakened once, the path is easier to find and the process of oscillating between awake and falling into the more practiced, unconscious, automatic way of life is the very vehicle, that will firm up your path to consciousness. At first, it’s just a few footsteps in the grassy field of the undiscovered territory. Over time, it will widen to a single file footpath, then as you travel this path over and over, it will become a comfortable, known little road for you to follow into conscious living. With practice, the sometimes overwhelming pull from mass consciousness belief will lessen and the time spent in conscious living will be greater than the time you spend revisiting the old paradigm until the new pattern of waking becomes the default for you and will be anchored into your personal belief system.

 

On the Subject of Prayer

The heinous events lately here as well as in other parts of the world, and I mean lately in a very loose sort of way, always seem to initiate a cry to pray for…(insert whatever it is we’re supposed to be praying for).  There are even voices that claim to know that the world should stop praying and that we better fix our own problems (with bombs perhaps?). I get that prayer in the traditional sense always seems to come from a place of feeling inferior, overwhelmed maybe, and seeking outside help. That may be so for many still. It surely appears that prayer has kind of fallen out of favor for many. It’s just not a “thing” anymore. This may have to do with many turning away from religion, as prayer is closely associated with a faith. (Funny how literally in every faith there’s prayer somewhere though).

In my belief system, and yes, that’s all it really is, just how I managed to line up my beliefs into a seeming structure of order, prayer is essential; as is meditation. Prayer would be talking, meditation listening – but who am I talking to, who am I listening to? In my belief, I talk and listen to source. Source is the non-physical, greater part from whence a “spark” came to incarnate in my body. That is the connection to the powers that I believe are greater than those of the physical world. Now when a disaster strikes, I may pray harder, with more urgency perhaps – this comes naturally for me, as I feel more and more the connectedness with all other people who are grieving and suffering. Energetically, prayer has a very direct way of affecting everything. The contrast of the disaster creates immediately the improved version, e.g. a peaceful world. Source then becomes that version and people lagging a bit (or a lot) behind, turn their attention to the contrast situation that has brought about the new creation, therefore finding themselves feeling bad, which indicates a state of misalignment. Now add prayer to the mix – yes, prayer will add fuel to the new creation and hence, source always being the giver of what has been asked, ups the ante and sends out the new creation energy pattern with increased intensity.

Usually, as a human being, I’m somewhat in resistance at all times. (Resistance to experiencing source energy unhindered) Sometimes more, sometimes less. That level of resistance exists whether source has upped the ante and sends out massive new energy waves, or not. When source answers the prayers energetically with this increase of energetic intensity, (because prayers really do get answered) I have the same level of resistance with more energy bouncing against that and I feel the effects by feeling pretty lousy. The mind wants to make sense of it and blames the heinous contrast events that gave rise to it all in the first place, which creates further misalignment. It takes us people a while to line up with such immediate large scale new creations, but it would be good to focus on what we want instead and pray that we can align swiftly, rather than ask for more source energy based on the idea that some other-worldly God-figure may swoop down and fix it all for us … well, in a way it’s happening that way, just we (humanity) are the extensions of source here on Earth. We are actually praying to ourselves if that makes any sense at all.

So, yes, always pray, meditate, it’s the communication between you and source. It’s vital for an aligned lifestyle. Do not listen to those who say to stop praying, for prayer is that intimate re-connection with who we really are and to stop that would be counter-intuitive in my opinion. I feel that the contrasting events that give rise to the call for prayer is actually one of the positive aspects, if I may say it that way (no offense intended anywhere). People waking up to prayer is important, for by turning away from religion, they have also turned away from prayer and a (re)turn to prayer is a good thing and should never stop.

Prayer done right, connects with source and will open one’s heart. There may be tears of release flowing, as we reconnect with source in a conscious manner, that is not a sadness, but a sense of relief that one is well under way to find that connection many of us so crave.

 

 

Paris (but Paris isn’t the only one…)

To believe that the same Allah/Elohim consciousness is the driving force behind or in favor of any kind of war, terrorism, taking of lives, misery, injustices or anything like that is simply not true on a level of higher consciousness, even though it can be and has been believed for many hundreds of years and stubbornly keeps being a fundamental belief in some groups. Yet what is also called “God” allows unconditionally any belief, for in allowing is unconditional love and it is the strongest force there is. In this unconditionality, God/Allah/Elohim/Creator/One keeps calling, keeps loving and never judges, not ever. The drama unfolds exactly in accordance to what mass consciousness is capable of believing – so take your time to go within and see what you believe, for you are part of this mass consciousness. Do you believe in hate or its opposite love? Would there be so many on this planet shouting the message of love if there wasn’t any truth to it? It is a choice whether to see artists as mere entertainers or as a balancing force that has the power to influence mass consciousness directly. There are words that have been spoken many times over in many ways on this planet. I for one choose to hear and heed them….Love is ALL you need…

The Divine Feminine and Masculine – What it Really Means

Ancient pasts that we may not be able to access through today’s history books have been read and interpreted by those able to tune into the Akasha Records. These records reveal that on Earth, humanity has lived through a number of cycles. I do not know for sure when the split into feminine vs masculine began, I reckon it was before paradise and the story of Eden if we follow the timeline of human history to go beyond that point in time. The energetic flow from patriarchial societal structures to matriarchial explorations and back to patriarchy and so forth has been a pendulum motion back and forth into the depths of either masculine or feminine dominance alternatively.

I am called to look upon this subject today in a slightly different manner. True, there are feminist voices out there who claim that it’s better to move more into a matriarchial society and so on. This has never resonated with me, despite being female and very often feeling the sting of that expression in the male dominated society I am living in. Universal truth is, as depicted in the yin/yang symbol, that there is a drop of masculine in a female and that drop feminine in a male – we all carry the potential for both sides.

Today’s tendencies of the young ones who come to show us this are those we call “transgender” or “gender fluid”. They very clearly demonstrate (even drastically so at times) that they can feel like one gender, yet be embodied in the other and feel very much out of place in the physical body and the physical world for that very reason. I recall personally, having wanted to be a boy for many years while growing up. Hell, I was one of the tallest people in my class as a teenager with 5’10” and dwarfed quite a few boys along the way. I didn’t only dwarf them with my physical stature, but noticeably with my sense of independency, clear aversion to anything that would tell me to submit to any authority, male or female, but especially male. This was matched with an intellect that helped me navigate the world successfully, despite the challenges I chose to be born into.

The result of such a “glorious” female incarnation could have easily lead to a feminist attitude and conviction, but it did not. I ended up suffering from being feared by both men and women and this trend seems to be ongoing. This alone is a sign that I myself have not managed yet to make peace with the tug-of-war that exists within me having chosen to send forth a predominantly male energy (power) to express it in a female body. In ancient times, I would probably have embodied this in the role of “warrior princess”, “amazone”, “shaman” or some such. Today, I have chosen to become a mother. A role that has challenged every little bit of me from the first breath of my firstborn. To complete the picture, I have two daughters and although my deep desire would have been to raise a male child due to a clearer understanding of what it means to be male, I know also full well, that these two children of mine have been the most challenging but deepest blessings at the same time, assisting me on my journey to not fall into the mistaken draw of feminism (male expression of the feminine side), but to begin a far more difficult journey. It is the journey to find balance between the predominantly male energies in this physical female form and mellow that power out with the more feminine attributes of nurturing, love, care, sympathy, and empathy.

This journey is of course ongoing and I have not a clue whether I will reach a point of balance in this lifetime. However, I do know that feminism in its true sense is nothing other than masculine energy attributed to females, by disavowing the feminine parts and becoming more masculine in the process and with that power bash masculinity in turn. (To each their own, this blog post is not about feminism in the first place.) It is my sincere desire that everyone find their journey’s meandering pathways in their own manner. To me, it has become very clear, that society’s development in principle is not about flip-flopping from patriarchy to matriarchy and back again to patriarchy and so on. Times for these extremes in duality have passed. It is time to find the commonality, the congruence and the beauty in the merger of these two energetic forces that seem to oppose each other yet complement each other beautifully and powerfully, when given the chance.

In order to see humanity develop into such a sense of equality of female and male energies and expressions requires individual journeys in which many individuals explore this subject within and find that (near) perfect balance in their own lives. It is no longer about “either/or” but rather about inclusion, integration, and about allowing that these energies complement each other in the most harmonious way possible within each individual, giving rise to the understanding of the inherent value of both sides and the even greater value of the combination of male and female energies. Those who resonate with these words have their work cut out for them and my heartfelt sympathy goes to all those with extreme courage to step onto this unchartered territory to carve out a new, peaceful path for equality within humanity. Thank you!

Sovereign Creator

SovereignCreator

You are the masterful Sovereign Creator of your own Reality. Any and All others who may play a part in it are cooperative components. 

The Veil

There are many reports from fabulous points of perspectives, that speak of many a change on Earth. Especially changes in the universal energies, astrological placements, and so on. They are all fantastic markers on our individual journeys and usually find us just at the right time, when we’re ready to read the amazingly accurate wayshowers’ treatises. This is why occasionally, I feel drawn to participate and put my perception out there. The reason for doing so is always based on a nudge I receive from my source point. This nudge indicates that it is the right point in time to write it all up, even if there’s just one other person ready to read it. That means, someone must have asked for clarity about this subject I am about to share here today, and this asking has caused the information to flow into this more public space, ready to be found.

The veil of forgetfulness was (yes was!) a thing that was “mandatory” and in place for most incarnations before 2012. It activated at the moment of birth into physical and the veil usually closed all the way by about age 7. Some kids were able to keep it open through a few more years, but usually around puberty, it shut completely and erased all memory of non-physical. Occasionally, there was a child born without the veil, or only a slight veil. Those incarnations weren’t special or meant to be lifted out of the ordinary, although they were certainly not the norm.

This  veil had a purpose and it still does. It is part of the Law of Grace, which shields the human mind from overload and being overwhelmed with input. (The Law of Grace speaks of never getting more than one can handle.) However, the human mind, along with the human DNA is expanding, as is everything else in this universe and in the physical as well as non-physical experience. The human mind can comprehend and compute so much more today than it was able to just 50 years ago, for example, and certainly a huge amount more than 200 – 1000 years ago, and so on.

This natural evolutionary expansion has become the catalyst that has slowly begun thinning the veil. It is with utter joy and exaltation that humanity has reached a point where the veil is becoming optional. This means that those who are experiencing the desire to know their source point will experience the thinning of this veil. It also follows that the decision as to whether to incarnate with the veil in place, thinner, or not at all present, is now available as a choice prior to incarnating into a new body.

In the spirit of free will choice, individuals can stay in their vibrational frequency they are used to with the veil fully in place, the law of grace shielding them from too much information at all times, so that they can go about their lives as they have intended and are used to. However, if the desire is reached to know non-physical self (source) better, the veil will begin to thin out gradually. This means, information has a chance to penetrate your mind that previously may not have found an avenue or your comprehension. This can range from perceiving every day experiences more fully, colors more vividly, sounds more precisely to gleaning information about past lives, source intentions, “missions” and goals that are relevant to you at this point in time. It can also lead to gradual opening of extra-sensory perception channels that have until now been more or less dormant.  These are but a few of the potential results you may experience while your veil thins more and more. All in all, a thinning veil will certainly expand your range of perception and intensify your human experience while bringing exquisite clarity to you.

More and more of the newly incarnated young ones may prove to you that they know far more than you can imagine. They may eventually begin using words that express that expanded knowledge and it would then be easy to see that they have chosen to come with a thin veil or none at all. This is how humanity will evolve from being closed off from the awareness of non-physical to gain fully integrated awareness over time from one generation to the next.

The excitement that I feel while bringing this information into the language form is incredibly beautiful. Personally, having lived all along without the veil in place, I rejoice in seeing more and more of my fellow humans reach for non-physical in ways that are so beautiful. I happily offer to engage in conversation about this process.

My Favorite Life

 

In order to experience the life you always wanted, the one you decided you could love, you must first love life itself.